Wednesday, April 8, 2009

What a Difference a Month Can Make

It started like a normal day.

M&M had school, the prince had occupational followed by vision therapy, nursing from 10-6, dance class, food store - just a normal Wednesday. What was NOT normal was the car that blindly crashed into my side as I drove to pick up the kids. The poor man was so shaken I couldn't possible be mad, it was an accident. My concern was not over the car, but in the delay the incident imposed on picking up my M&Ms. After the police report was taken, the afternoon progressed - off to dance then a quick run to Whole Foods. Conversing all the while with the insurance company, a representative from Special Child Services (the waiver program), and intermittently with David about the extent of the damage. Back to get my dancing superstar, and the race home to relieve Connie, today's nurse.

Again, all normal for Wednesday. But what was NOT normal was the car alarming with news ...Fuel Low. No problem, there was an Exxon close by, but my car said I had 0 miles left. I stop at the light, I can see the gas station through the intersection, when my car died. I ran out of gas! Literally, ran out of gas. I have heard of people-silly, unprepared people running out of gas - but not me.
So there we sat, cars beeping, arms waving, expletives flying - there's, not mine. I calmly called David. He raced to us with a gas tank in hand, flagged down a police officer, and pushed me out of harm's way. My tank was justly filled at the oasis, a.k.a. - the Exxon station. David and I laughed at the scene.

Do you realize how many times my car must have shouted a warning to me - Low Fuel, but I never heard it. My mind is clearly focusing on some other matters. David and I were not even upset with the afternoon events, no one was injured, the car was drivable, and after all - cars are replaceable. Not a normal reaction, but evidence of a perspective shift completely inspired from the places we've walked these past several weeks.

One month ago, Eamon's CO2 level made him "incompatible with life". There were difficult options being presented to us. One in particular was to allow "nature to take it's course". They assured me that Eamon would be kept comfortable. There weren't any promises that a trach would alter the nose dive his health, specifically his respiratory system, had taken.

But oh, what a difference a month can make! Eamon was trached, and continues to strengthen. The prince is NOT requiring supplemental oxygen. He is enjoying his days, sleeping through the night peacefully using the vent, and is most definitely compatible with this life - thank you very much.

I have tried, on several occasions to dress Eamon up in his new Disney shirt, Ears in place, holding the newly trached stuffed mouse. But something always seem to preclude the much desired photo (sorry Jod!) I have not abandoned the official "Ears for Eamon" photos, but wanted to give you a glimpse of his mouseketeer cuteness.



"Hey, what in the world is on my head?!"






M-I-C-K-E-Y M-O-U-S-E!








What a difference a month can make!

7 comments:

Momma-of-5 said...

I'm crying...literally crying. Joy, of course. But crying. And I'm supposed to be on my way to meet Cool Shannon for a 6 mile run. How am I going to run if I'm crying, Tracy?

First...sorry about the craziness of yesterday! Glad everyone's okay. Glad you can laugh. Crazy. Just crazy. Never a dull moment for you Barclay's!

Second...I just re-fell in love with Mr. Eamon. That smile! Holy cow! He looks like a different boy without the oxygen in his nose. He looks like a big boy. Like he's going to go play light sabers with Myles & Ty. Maybe in his chair...but still!

Third...You're SUCH an encouragement. Thank you! Thank you for keeping things in perspective!

Love you, Cuz!

- Aim

Scrapronicity said...

Oh Tracy...you must be ready for the weekend huh?? As I enjoyed matzo ball soup you had such an awful day! I'm so sorry for the insanity!

One month, it's hard to believe...but I DO believe! Who knew such a little guy could be so inspiring? Each day as I tackle my own obstacles, I think of Eamon and he gives me strength! How sweet he looks in those photos...look at him go!

By the way, those photos are all I need. I'll have a little something for you when I see you next. Take care, kisses to the kids and we'll talk soon.

XOXO
Jodi

Lisa said...

"AMEN" Ears off to our Prince! He looks soooo GREAT!

ginny said...

What an adorable mouse he makes !
So great to see our little guy smiling and looking so healthy !
We'll try to see you on Easter - we surely miss ALL the kids !
Sorry you had such a rough day - you know what they say... when it rains, it pours.... may it stop raining on your parade ! Love you !

Superhero Mom said...

So you enjoyed "just another ordinary miracle" that day huh? WOW! I highly doubt you will run out of gas anytime soon...I ran out of gas on my way home to meet the "special" bus that was dropping off Kyle from school. Brendan and I both cryed at the intersection...knowing that we had missed Kyle, praying he wasn't wandering the town on his own...and promising that I would never ever go without a 1/4 of a tank again. UGH that feeling. Glad you could laugh! The pictures are amazing. So adorable in those ears..now all he needs is a butterfly kiss from tinkerbell (or me)! ;) I love you..and you are one of my favorite people too!

Superhero Mom said...

Ohh..Tracy...I want to call you right now! It's 10:47pm...you are missing me...I am missing you!!! YOU need a WEB CAM! $25...I got one for my birthday! Then, not only could we talk for free...we could see each other! I don't want to call you this late...afraid I may wake the natives! I would though...if you gave me the word I would! Know I love you soooo much! If you get this you could call me...I'd call you right back so it wouldn't cost a dime! I'm up! xxx ooo

Jen said...

I am sorry to hear about your accident but I am thrilled no one was hurt! You are so right cars can be replaced!

I've run out of gas before too! I felt like such a fool!! I passed up several gas stations but was trying to get to one with best price!! Silly me!!

Eamon looks so handsome with his ears!! Such a cutie!!

Jen